Posted 3 days ago

Tell them. Them everything.

I’m not going to sit here and say i never made my mistakes in our relationship. I messed up and i tried every time to fix it. That’s the difference between you and me. I never stopped fighting. I never wanted to give up. Then again, a person can only put so much effort and so much fight into something before their heart and mind just give up.

You never wanted to admit you were wrong. You never wanted to admit when you made a mistake. You always had an excuse. You ran away the second things weren’t perfect. You gave up too soon and too quickly. All of a sudden, you realize that its something you actually want. You realize that she was actually there for you when no one else was. Now you want to fight.

Well, no. It doesn’t work that way. Now she decides that she deserves better. Now she wants someone who isn’t going to make her cry. Now she wants someone who sees how much shes worth.

And now you go off telling everyone everything she did and you think she did. You’re the victim. You’re the only one who got hurt. So it’s okay for everyone to call her a whore because she realized she wasn’t one. Its okay for people to call her a bitch because she had finally decided she was done with your abuse and moved on. Its okay for her to cry every night because she cant take what did anymore.

No its not okay. Why don’t you tell them everything? Tell them how you talked to other girls. Tell them how you would leave her to drink with your friends. Tell them how you got when you were drunk. Tell them how you forced her to do things because you were drunk. Tell them how you would hit her when you would get mad. Tell them about the first night you hit her and left her completely alone.

Tell them. Tell them everything.

Posted 2 weeks ago

rebellion

She light up that night with a mind full of problems and eyes full of painful tears. She had been living a life of pretend. She wasn’t happy and she couldn’t keep playing the role of perfect daughter. When the summer heat grazed her skin, well it ended her doubts. She was about to turn to complete rebellion for some happiness. She knew that life wasn’t going to ever be the same and that some hearts were going to brake…but as long as it was no longer going to be hers. She was willing to sacrifice anyone and anything for her happiness. She learned from her mom that when you want something then you have to fight for it. There goes her fight. Her war from the world. Every time she started feeling closer to it…she felt it get torn away and further. But this time she was going to fight the fight the battle till it ended all wars. She was going to do anything it took to finally have her happiness.

Posted 2 weeks ago

Lonesomeness is an impossibility

I sometimes feel that my life has changed too much. I maybe overdosed on the whole “new me, new life”. I pushed too hard to have everyone realize im not the same person but in a way i kind of lost sight of the person i wanted the to realize that i was. I tried to hard to be the strong loner that didnt need anyone. Not saying that i cant survive without someone but everyone needs someone to listen to them after a while. I had someone tell me today that it seems like i could loose everyone and i would be okay. Talk about a reality check huh? It made me think of all the people that i talk to everyday and how weird life would be if i go from them their with me all the time and knowing that if i need them, there they are…to all of a sudden, im completely alone. I not only got a greater appreciation for those people but i realized im not as strong as i think i am. None of us are. I think we fool ourselves into believing that we can just stride on through life completely alone. We all need someone their to take that walk with us.

Posted 3 weeks ago

Its been a really big inspiration to me and helping me decide to be me so thank you for writting this song…

(Source: Spotify)

Posted 3 weeks ago

One of my written pieces…checkout my tumblr for more๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’™โœŒ๏ธ

Posted 3 weeks ago

Be you…

I have let go of the fear. The fear to be me and the fear to what people will say because i am. I decided that happiness is never going to happen for me if im trying to make it happen for everyone else. Pleasing people and pleasing yourself is impossible. But you will come to realize that pleasing yourself is more relieving and stress-less. Not everyone will be happy. Some will walk away from you because of arrogance, jealousy or intimidation. You might think embracing yourself is a lonesome path but its really a confident walk. A walk to yourself. To your true self. You might encounter a couple of reality checks along the way. You might completely be broken at times and want to run back. But the feeling of loving yourself completely, even if it means sacrificing others…Its the closest you will ever get to perfect success.

Posted 3 weeks ago

Been called every name in the book and I still have more confidence than all of them…ladies, you have to understand that what they say about you (truth or not) doesn’t matter, it’s what you think of yourself so ignore what everyone says…love yourself and embrace who you are๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ‘โœŒ๏ธ

Posted 3 weeks ago

When celebrity bae gets a girlfriend… @jakefoushee I volunteer to be your side #foreveralone #istillloveyou

Posted 3 weeks ago

Switched out the red for the pink today๐Ÿ’—๐ŸŽ€โ˜บ๏ธ #pink #lovethecolor #miamipink #shortyshorts

Posted 3 weeks ago

Model status on point or nah?? #babyniece #socute #bikinilife #pool #strikeapose